Train Of Thoughts...

Recently someone asked me to describe myself, state my likes and dislikes. Normally I think before I write, this time I thought lets write as I think. So here it goes my train thoughts about myself...
That's the most difficult thing to do. Like describing myself. I am not at all good at this. You see I would spend half of the time thinking where to start :)
(I actually stopped here for 5 minutes.) OK so lets start with dislikes. I don't like getting up early, but I do like early mornings. Somehow I feel nights should have been a little longer.
I don't like being alone, but then again when I find myself among others I find myself bound, and so hate being not free. But there are some people with whom I can be free too, sadly enough they are less in number and at this point are married or are heading towards it :) I am introvert, and you might find me talking less the first time. Well I will tell the reason, before starting a sentence I tend to think what conversation would it lead to. By the time I am done with my imagination, the conversation would have already been over.

I am an optimist, but I don't expect success. I think if its a failure it might have/add some other value. I am imaginative. I don't like reading books because, I think that's controlled imagination. Movies are a little different, you don't have to imagine. So I like them. I remember some of my dreams and at times they get mixed with reality. May be because I am sleeping a lot now a days.


I don't like routines. I like a clean room but I don't like clean it myself :) I am lazy, and sometimes I get complimented for being patient because of that. I am impatient. I like to finish whatever I have started as soon as possible. But I want it to be done correctly. No both of them never happened simultaneously. I tend to switch over from one thing to another frequently and with ease. My mom says its being fickle minded, its lack of concentration. There is hardly any time when I am not thinking anything. It doesn't stop while sleeping, that's why I dream a lot. I like my dreams, so I sleep a lot. I have made tunes in my sleep, I like to sing, I try to play keyboard, I can play a song or two. I am a better singer when I am alone. I feel more lonely in a crowd(when alone) than in my closed room.


I have a hobby to have one, I sketch, I sing, I play music, photography, traveling, play snooker, table tennis, like to workout, I don't like yoga because I don't have patience. If I am not moving, I would rather be sleeping. Oh so we are back to sleeping again, its one of the hobbies too. Reading as I said No, movies yes. Love stories are getting boring for me, action thrillers are in now a days. I tried collecting stamps at school, but gave up.


I don't like being given choices, choices confuse me. That's one of the reason I cant start a conversation. I have to choose what to say. I can answer questions better. Some of my classmates called me Answering Machine. Here is an example, If you ask if I like Cafe Mocha or Cappuccino, I might not be able to answer and say both. But if you ask me what coffee I like, I would say Cafe Mocha. I like coffee, twice a day. But I don't like my teeth getting yellow. I try to brush twice day for that, and use Listerine at night. But then I don't like routines. That's why I don't like alarms, It takes me 3 different alarms to wake me up. But I can stay awake an entire night and work the other day. Just that when I sleep I want it to be complete. Or not end soon. That's inertia of rest.

I like to drive, I like to ride a bike more. I like to ride a bike in rain. I like rain, and getting wet. I like water, the ocean, the sunset, mm sunrise. Have seen the sunrise twice in my life. I rode my bike to the river to see the sunrise at 5 o'clock. I like nature, and so I like photography. I take pictures of nature and I like to draw people, mostly female. The reason being it keeps me interested, other wise I would change the subject.
I like music, no specific genre. I like silence, Its the most silent time at around 3:30 in the morning. I won the Most Silent student Award in Class 2. I had to pick up a fight in Class 4 to show that I am not boring. I chose the weakest guy. I feel bad about it. I don't like fighting. Except with my brother. I like my brother the most. I like to ride the bike with him on rear. He encourages to speed up, I can take up any vehicle on the road if he is behind. We have had accidents, those are secrets. We lied at home. I lie. I lie only for small things for better. I don't hate liars. I would hate some of the reasons to lie.
I don't hate people. I try to understand them. And classify them as those whose understanding match with mine and those whose doesn't. That's why I think a lot. And I listen a lot. My mouth is smaller than my ear. (did you notice?) some people like my smile. My mom doesn't like it, because I show my teeth. I have a broken tooth. I broke it while trekking. I like trekking. We went for trekking a lot in Mangalore.
I like Mangalore, I liked Goa too. I like San Francisco, I didn't New York. I like India more. I like South India more. I like south Indian food. I love food. All kinds, like music. I like non-vegetarian, well Chicken. I don't like beans. I like Biriyani, I like to cook. I don't cook everyday, I don't like routines. I like Coke, I like water the most.
I like to take long showers, I pretend its raining. I like to pretend to myself, I am imaginative. I like to look back on my past. I analyze myself a lot, I analyze other a lot. I think a lot.
and so I stay calm a lot. I don't react, I respond. I don't get angry, except with my mother. I look like my Mother, I behave like my Father. My father analyzes and my mother is artistic. I took some from both, I believe my brother is my upgraded version. but he talks a lot. All the more reason why I keep silent. I have to listen to a lot of people.
All my friends are talkative. I like people who talk, takes the pressure off me. But at the end, would you say I don't talk at all?